I give up…there it is. Plain and simple. I have no more try and I have no more do left. I guess I am at the crossroads once again….should I go left or right? Here’s to not knowing once again eh?? What was the point of all this? Was I stupid to believe that good things could just happen after all the hell I went through?….I guess I was.
I had one relationship where I was dominant and I was not truly in love with him….and he let me go. I know why now, he could not live that way anymore, especially after all that happened. Even though he did the most horrible thing a man could do to his family (that is, leave them alone in a strange town and completely destitute) let’s not demonize him here, there are two sides to every story, after all.
The other relationship was a real eye opener. I was, and still am crazy in love with this man. In the past two years we have been through more than most couples go through in ten years. I was willing to keep at it and work on it but there are things he just will not do! He does not love me the way I love him…..and why?? Is there something really wrong with me? Am I defective or in some way unattractive? That is the way I feel.